I continue my baby steps in my physical healing. I am conservative with my limited energy. All of my time and energy is focused on staying positive to the best of my ability. I’ve learned first hand that I do not have energy to waste. And my goodness have I wasted energy in my life – I have been slow at accepting just what my capabilities are. It has not been easy for me to learn to conserve my energy like turning off a low watt light bulb.
I am fortunate to have finally found out that my chronic pain I’ve been living with for years has been caused by many food allergies. An actual DNA test showed it all – allergies from every food group. Plus a genetic allergy to gluten. These foods have been toxic to my system for quite some time. My poor insides are worn out and damaged from these toxic foods.
I remind myself to have patience with the process. Baby steps. . . . What I can not eat, oddly enough, looks like a long shopping list.
I admit it has been a lonely time of isolation as I rest and sleep and heal. I have learned to be protective of just who I allow myself to give my energy to. What works for me, as I must keep my personal bucket full, are my friends who are authentic and only have the simplicity of love and encouragement to offer me as I rebuild my physical strength. Encouragement is something I see as a special gift that few know how to offer. I respond to encouragement – it fills my weary soul with comfort, cheer and inspiration. Encouragement is stimulating support that is able to pull me out of my serious funk. (I’ve never slept so much in my life.) And on two occasions, friends have picked me up and taken me to church – love that music!
This has not been easy – but I will never give up. I can slowly but surely heal myself with pure food that my body will not reject.
It is what it is. This too shall pass. I am so grateful for all I’ve learned – for all I’ve seen. It’s good to have a simple life full of supportive encouraging friends.
And I am blessed to have a cool cat, Grace, who keeps her eye on me. She reminds me everyday that laughter is good medicine.