10 days into the New Year. Monday, January 10th, 2011. Thinking and thinking. I can not get to sleep and I am thinking too much. What is it about January 10th? I am the type of person that more often than not will remember random dates of events. A lot has happened this past week – however – I’ll get into all of that tomorrow, I am still accessing my feelings and the significance of the past week. Perhaps it is the reason that I can not get to sleep (not a good thing) I’ve been thinking. (again, not a good thing) But please don’t get me wrong. Even though a lot has happened this week, I am surprisingly ok with it. Clearly, when I reach a healthy level of acceptance, it works quite well for the ol’ positive attitude.
So, back to this January 10th thing. . . . It’s been two years. Yep – that’s it – January 10th, 2009 I had finished packing up my cozy apartment in the Heartland of America. The movers had picked up what was left of my belongings – and that was it. I tossed my personal belongings and some snacks into my car and headed south to avoid the heavy snow west of me in Colorado. It’s been two years since I said good bye to Omaha, Nebraska. 2 years ago today. It was one of the best adventures I had ever been on since my son grew up and moved out of the house. It was my turn to do some serious growing as well. And that I did. So, my heart told me it was time to move back to Southern California. My emotions were quite bittersweet. As I headed out from Nebraska, it was lightly snowing – the perfect send off! (At least for me.)
Something profound and magical happened with in me when I was living in the Heartland. After being a single, sober, mother and living in the same place for many years, I actually went out on an adventure. I was offered a job in Omaha and I followed my heart and simply said, “yes”. It was time to get to know myself – finally. I was happy to look ahead, but could not stop reliving the comfort and happy feelings I had found in the Heartland. Friendly people, handsome down to earth men, the 4 seasons and one of my many favorite things, fireflies! So, a dear and special friend from Omaha traveled with me to help me with the driving. We went south through Kansas and Oklahoma. For me, in this situation, it was helpful to pull the moving band-aid off slowly. I then continued through Texas and New Mexico. In Arizona I stayed for a few days at my fathers. Then drove to my new home in California on January 18th 2009.
There you have it – the short version. I was lucky. It was all good.
I should be able to fall asleep now – gratitude is helpful for that. (It is 3:30 AM)
I am comfortable and happy in California too. Sweet dreams.