I continue to look for a job. It’s been 8 months now. Plus – I usually do not speak of this – but for the majority of the month of September, I have endured acute chronic intestinal pain. The fact is (just the facts, no complaining here!) I have lived with different levels of on going pain for about 13 years. (surgery 8 years ago) The pain has not been this horrific for about 2 or 3 years. What is awesome is, that while I was in my bed lying on my side hugging my heating pad as if it was a teddy bear – I knew I could tough it out. Day after day, as I held the heat to my abdomen, I knew the pain would eventually pass. It was difficult, but not impossible, to take care of my self. I drank lots of water, ate my strict healthy pure bland diet, and (here is the awesome part) I had no doubt in my mind that there were many incredible, beautiful and lovely things in store for me in my very near future. That’s called “hope”! Persevere. Never give up. The impossible only takes a little longer. I did not talk on the phone to most people because, well, who wants to listen to someone speak when they are clearly in pain? sheesh. I also know my energy should only be used on healing myself. Nothing else. I only focused on staying pointed in a direction towards healing my body. After many, many days in a row, finally today, I have a reprieve from my severe pain. I am grateful.
I have had many stupendous things happen in my life. Many good experiences. Many happy endings to a not-so-happy day. If we did not know just what physical and emotional pain feels like, then we would not feel deep gratitude and joy when the sweetness of life and pure love of a friend comes our way. We never know what is right around the corner waiting for us, just like a well planned surprise party. I believe that as a direct result of finally having the last few hours be pain free for me, today I have realized something quite cool and important:
I have never experienced a miracle that wasn’t worth the wait!
And why would anyone mind waiting for a miracle? Especially a custom-made miracle?!
FYI – my son Tyler sent me this exquisite posted picture when he was on vacation in Montana. Big Sky country indeed!